what a week

I was not able to get back to write about what had happened at the University. So sorry my dear little bloggie spot. Well, come to find out, they just had not made it that far yet with posting the acceptances. I am a transfer student so they told me it should be around the beginning of next week that I will know. I just hope so much to get in. Sometimes I wished I would have gone to school when I was younger. Oh well. Just hope hope so much to be in school come February 7th. (Photo of the entrance to AUB). American University of Beirut.

The issue with my daughters paperwork actually unfolded a little "lie" her old school was telling so now that was a big mess but nothing we did. So thankful for that. We just have to get her visa renewed and pick up a letter from the Ministry of Education stating they are fixing the error and she will be good to go. It just is awful that should I get into school, I was fearing that she still would not be in school herself.

Right now I am watching the Phantom of the Opera….AGAIN! I really love this movie but I get so angry when I watch it because if I was her, I would have gone with the Phantom. But that is just me. I just feel so sorry for him. I think he just wanted to be loved and I feel like she dumped on him after all he did for her. I mean to at least give him a shot but she just dumped him cold.

I hope to one day be able to see this show in real life. I don't know if it's even on Broadway anymore. Have to check into that one. I really liked Gerard Butler in this movie :o) He was great.

Yesterday my oldest son decided to draw me a picture on my floor. I am so glad that it was with the bathtub crayons…it's washable at least. He drew a picture of his friend from the future. He is just too much I tell you. The imagination that he has truly amazes me. The picture went from my chair by the computer allllll the way to my door. It has the longest legs. So following in suit, my younger son did his little Picasso work as well on the floor. I am now keeping just pencils around and hiding all the pens. I had washed my walls in my room from his most recent artwork and it looks like they have just about been freshly painted lol. My boys. I love them so very much.

I wanted to write today about things as I see them over here but I just don't know how to write about it. It's hard sometimes to write you know…kids screaming at the top of their lungs around you, TV on mock 10, phones ringing etc etc…the list is long. About the only real personal time I get anymore is if I make myself stay awake. I really admire those women who have been stay at home moms all the time. I mean. Up until just 4 years ago, now almost 5, I was always working. It is not an easy adjustment to begin staying at home when all you have ever known was to be outside working or going to school. I am about to be back in school…I hope and I am wondering how I will make that transition again. Oh, I will probably manage just fine and it will feel sorta like a freedom I guess, my time away from this house and these walls. There really isn't much I can do here in the winter time except for shop and spend money. I think things took a turn for me after the war here this past summer.

One day I was out getting some vegetables etc and Israel had started to bomb…in broad daylight. Having been in the military myself for 8 years, there is just no getting used to the sounds of weapons being exploded and you know innocent people are being murdered. It is a whole lot different than training in the field with the Marines that is for sure. I guess now I am a little bit afraid to be outside because you just never know. At night sometimes when it is really quiet you can the Israeli jets flying over…Lebanon does not have such things.

But they fly over and I keep wondering why my own country will not put a stop to it. They are violating the rules and when it gets brought to the attention of the UN the two countries with the most power, USA and Britain, prevent any actions from happening to Israel. I just don't understand this part at all. They are breaking a law…and getting away with it. They are not supposed to be flying over Lebanon at all yet they still do. I have fears like, will it be my building they "accidentally" bomb?

I don't mean to make it sound like it is a war zone over here in Lebanon because it isn't really like that now but it was during the summer. The area that was hit repeatedly over the summer was somewhat close because the bombs sounded like they were being dropped in front of our building. You know, so many Americans live here. If Lebanon was all that bad would Americans have wanted to return? I met a lot of people from America and like me, they had that fictious idea of how Lebanon would be and after coming here we see that it's not like what the media tells us at all in the states. Oh my journal today is a mixture of things. A mixture of feelings and uncertainties. I just want what is best for my family. I think I am more angry about all that is happening and just wish that it would stop.

Lebanon is such a beautiful country and stupid people are going to ruin it. Greed is the cause of a lot of the problems and if we could eliminate greed, I think we could solve a lot of the worlds problems. Well, hopefully later today I will be in a better mood and have a more cheerful posting. Just sometimes the smiles and jokes are not there and this world and it's troubles take a toll on you. I was never political by any means until I moved away from my home. My eyes and ears are wide open now…I don't like what I see and I don't like what I hear.

Photo Credits:

AUB Front entrance (American University Beirut Site)

Gerard Butler (Warner Bros.)

Gerard Butler (Warner Bros.)

Stick Figure (Aaliyah Habbal)

Protestors (Al-Jazeera)